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我被换了

我被换了。 这是今天中午我在照镜子时发现的。

我很少照镜子, 但今天我的眼睛不舒服, 似乎进了沙子, 于是我照了镜子。 不知道为什么, 今天照镜子时我突然对着自己的双眼皮发呆, 然后猛的一身冷汗, 我开始清醒的意识到– 真正的自己应该是没有双眼皮的!

我之前也偶然看到过这双双眼皮, 但却从来没有像今天这样冷静严肃地面对过。 于是, 马上, 我开始从头对脚对自己认真地检查了好几遍。 事情已经很明显– 我已经不是我, 我被换了:

左肩和胸前各多了一颗痣;
牙齿不仅多了一个, 而且有两个牙齿之间的缝隙明显比之前大了一根韭菜大小;

别人一直说我头发变少了, 我一直笑着应付, 以为他们开我玩笑, 现在我明白他们说的应该是真的了。还有我的眼睛一向很好, 现在看东西不清楚了, 我还误以为是电脑看多了变近视了呢。。。

而且我能看到的只是表面, 也许我的里面, 如盲肠, 如心,如血, 如脑, 甚至我的那热血方刚的肾,也已经或部分或全部地被换过了。

我不清楚自己是什么时候被换的。 也许是在睡觉的时候, 也许是我在看电视入迷的时候, 也许是我在拼命工作的时候。但无论是什么时候, 我可以确定的是我已经被换了。

时局很乱, 这是我早就知道的了, 但我没有想过已经乱到开始换人的地步了。上次同学会, 我发现很多同学都不像他们自己了。 现在想想,被换的应该不只是我一个。

为防止类似的悲剧再次发生, 我建议您给自己绑一根绳子, 然后坐着的时候将绳子另一头绑到椅子上, 躺着的时候将自己绑到床角上 —-  对了,我应该先问一下, “你还是你吗?”

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《乱》黑泽明

这就是人间,不求幸福而求悲哀,不求宁静而求痛苦。

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Blade Runner

I’ve seen things you people wouldn’t believe. Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion. I watched C-beams glitter in the darkness at Tannhäuser Gate. All those moments will be lost in time, like tears.. in rain.

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您的女人

“…., 您的女人” –那天我和N正在沃尔玛里面挑东西, 商场广播传来女播音员的声音吸引了我们的注意力。 商场的广播无非就是提醒客户注意不要在购物篮中放置贵重个人物品之类的友情提醒信息, 听多了耳朵也基本免疫了, 不会分散我们的心思。 但这个却不然。“您的女人” ? 就在听到“您的女人”四个字之后的0.01秒内, 我思考了半个小时。

“是谁谁的女人?” “这个女人又是怎么了?” “这个女人怎么了又和沃尔玛有什么关系要让沃尔玛在广播里提起这个女人?”

0.01秒之后, 广播传来播音女孩低微嗤嗤的笑声。 这笑声很轻, 很短, 但也许大家是如此是安静或我们是如此之专注, 被我们听得很清楚。女播音员马上跟进“您的女儿在服务台等你。XX先生请注意,您的女儿在…”。 我和N相对而笑。

是一个失误。 有时候更有趣的生活离我们只有一个小失误长的距离。

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我从远道来

果然, 文峰大道转盘那里的水不是最深的. 在铁西路中段我明白了. 和很多正在犹豫的车主一样, 我把我的自行车停在了路边, 我是想要拍照. 当然也有成功开过去的, 但大家围观的显然是在水中熄火了的, 正被好几人用力在近乎没腰的水中艰难地推行前进中的那辆. 我拍了三张照片, 收起了相机, 跟在一个壮汉后面. 比较幸运, 虽然水位高, 但毕竟是不流动的.

因为路况不熟, 也没有看GPS, 后来差点上了郑林高速. 走了一大段冤枉路, 到近6点才转回到后营. 此时我已经一身泥水, 衣裤上已经没有净土了.

后面的路程几乎没有积水. 唯有在后营入口有一小滩不到膝盖的小塘. 两岸聚集了些许抓着车把停足观望的人. 人群中刚好留有一个小缝. 我二话没说, 淌水而过. 相对于人群的长久停留, 自己显得如风如云. 但当时未曾多想.

当晚回顾前后, 自问后营人群为何遇小塘而不前? 而自己义无反顾? 那还有什么很深的原因或道理吗? 只不过我已经涉过更深的水路, 如此而已.

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看破 放下 自在

看破 放下 自在
分别 妄想 执着
造句:
看破, 不再去分别; 放下妄想和执着, 从而自在.

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不怕与不畏

不怕不一定就是不畏. 比如不怕死有可能是不知道死之可怕. 不畏却是不同. 不畏死者已经知道了死的可怕, 经过思考而做了选择, 选择坦然面对, 从而不畏.

因为不知道对手的可怕而不怕, 这种不怕和其背后的无知并不全然是坏事. 带着这种所谓的不怕, 血气方刚, 信心十足地去行动, 大凡比战战兢兢, 抖抖索索地前行来得更加顺利和畅快.
 
无知的错在于它是一种运气.
一个人无知一时不难, 难的是坚持无知一辈子. 少女在甩她的前几个男友时没有哪个会怕鱼尾纹, 但大二大三的学生却总有一天会因为妻儿老小的生计问题而面对找工作的压力.

因为无知而生长的不怕, 好比是一个是空心的气球, 经不起在角棱上磕碰; 而不畏却是实在的, 如流行之水, 即便遇到山石, 绕它一下, 前进不变.

不怕有时是天生的, 初生的牛犊便不怕虎. 但不畏却从来都不是那样低廉. 不畏是一个从不怕到怕, 从怕到不怕的过程. 这个过程需要敢于面对的勇气, 能理清分明的才智, 还要能看破想开的心胸.

我, 不怕死. 但这不能说明我现在不畏死, 毕竟我还年轻, 真正赤裸面对死亡的机会并不常有. 但我希望到时我是不畏的. 我知道那时的不畏不是那天的决定, 而是我这一辈子的积蓄.

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315晚会

如今, 有些人为金钱无恶不做. 社会上偷骗横行. 用病毒木马偷账号密码, 用电话骗钱, 中国移动为了提高收入帮骗子们群发短信. 小到市井小民, 大到世界500强大企… 全都为了钱. 他们的良心没舍得放到脑后, 估计都存到火星上了.

骗子的”话术”之所以屡试不爽, 不在于言语的高明, 而在他们思想的坦然. 他们骗得光明正大, 或许因为有社会的混杂可以做为后盾, 又或许因为有被骗对象的贪婪可以安抚他们的内疚. 被骗过的再去骗人, 骗得何等理直气壮? 国企在骗人, 个体的骗子怎么不心安理得?

整治这些问题, 哪是315晚会, 哪是工商局, 哪是武警公安能做的事?  一方面在处理这些现象, 另一边却在宣扬经济文化. 施肥者除草. 哪个电视里不是高楼林立, 天桥伴着彩灯? 哪个县长不是在谈引资开发, 搞活GDP? 哪个老太太不是在想着理财和保险, 防着儿媳并吞遗产? 社会之所以能有今天, 只能说政府的言论传导的过于成功了, 邓爷爷一呼十几亿应, 而且很多应得忠心赤胆, 不择手段!

向西走!!!于是大家都试探着迈出脚步. 有人放下爱好, 有人放下故乡, 有人放下亲情. 走的人越来越多, 前赴后继, 终于前看不到头, 后看不到尾. 看到有人走的比自己快, 总有人想赶上去, 你追我赶, 终于大家越走越快. 终于, 有些人进化成了马, 有些人进化成了牛, 它们狂奔了起来, 追赶者如无际河流. 人会扶起前面被撞倒了的人, 但进化的牛马终于麻木了, 甚至不再能感觉到蹄下偶尔 软绵绵的异物.  在慷慨激昂的乐声中, 在飞扬的尘土间, 它们飞奔着, 追赶的是如此的激烈, 跑得是如此的投入, 终于, 它们忘记了自己原来是什么, 从哪里来和要到哪里去…

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My collection of QUOTES

I have not failed. I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work.
  – Thomas A. Edison

Look for the ridiculous in everything and you will find it.
  – Jules Renard

Failure is not the only punishment for laziness; there is also the success of others.
  – Jules Renard

There is no excellent beauty that hath not some strangeness in the proportion.
  – Sir Francis Bacon

When you look at yourself from a universal standpoint, something inside always reminds or informs you that there are bigger and better things to worry about.
  – Albert Einstein

Character is what you have left when you’ve lost everything you can lose.
  – Evan Esar

A goal is a dream with a deadline.

The time to stop talking is when the other person nods his head affirmatively but says nothing.
  – Henry S. Haskins

Efficiency is intelligent laziness.
  – Anonymous

The public is wonderfully tolerant. It forgives everything except genius.
  – Oscar Wilde

I’m kind of jealous of the life I’m supposedly leading.
  – Zach Braff
 
Nothing is as simple as we hope it will be.
  – Jim Horning
 
If the human mind was simple enough to understand, we’d be too simple to understand it.
  – Emerson Pugh
 
  An intellectual is a person who has discovered something more interesting than sex.
  – Aldous Huxley

Education is the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper or your self-confidence.
  – Robert Frost
 
The only paradise is paradise lost.
  – Marcel Proust

Laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and exhaustion. I myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterward.
  – Kurt Vonnegut

Happiness is not achieved by the conscious pursuit of happiness; it is generally the by-product of other activities.
  – Aldous Huxley

There is still a difference between something and nothing, but it is purely geometrical and there is nothing behind the geometry.
  – Martin Gardner

You can only be young once. But you can always be immature.
  – Dave Barry

A large income is the best recipe for happiness I ever heard of.
  – Jane Austen

A door is what a dog is perpetually on the wrong side of.
  – Ogden Nash

Laugh and the world laughs with you, snore and you sleep alone.
  – Anthony Burgess

It’s never just a game when you’re winning.
  – George Carlin

Never be afraid to laugh at yourself, after all, you could be missing out on the joke of the century.
  – Dame Edna Everage

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy and Jill a rich widow.
  – Evan Esar

What if nothing exists and we’re all in somebody’s dream? Or what’s worse, what if only that fat guy in the third row exists?
  – Woody Allen

You will do foolish things, but do this with enthusiasm.
    -Collete

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I–/ I took the one less traveled by, / And that has made all the difference.
  – Robert Frost

Against logic there is no armor like ignorance.
  – Laurence J. Peter

It is not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent, but those most adaptive to change.
Charles Darwin

You must be the change you want to see in the world. -Gandhi

"It’s better to be a pirate than join the navy."
Steve Jobs

Laughter is the closest distance between two people.
  – Victor Borge
 
Some have been thought brave because they were afraid to run away.
  – Thomas Fuller

By the time a man realizes that maybe his father was right, he usually has a son who thinks he’s wrong.
  – Charles Wadsworth

The trouble with being poor is that it takes up all of your time.
  – Willem de Kooning

The trouble about trying to make yourself stupider than you really are is that you very often succeed.
  – CS Lewis

At my lemonade stand I used to give the first glass away free and charge five dollars for the second glass. The refill contained the antidote.
  – Emo Phillips

Most turkeys taste better the day after; my mother’s tasted better the day before.
  – Rita Rudner

Men live in a fantasy world. I know this because I am one, and I actually receive my mail there.
  – Scott Adams

Happiness makes up in height for what it lacks in length.
  – Robert Frost

You probably wouldn’t worry about what people think of you if you could know how seldom they do.
- Olin Miller

“敢问夫子恶乎长?”曰:“我知言,我善养吾浩然之气。”
“敢问何谓浩然之气?”
曰:“难言也。其为气也,至大至刚,以直养而无害,则塞于天地之间。…”
《孟子·公孙丑上》

A man can be happy with any woman as long as he does not love her.
  – Oscar Wilde

When a thing has been said and well, have no scruple. Take it and copy it.
- Anatole France

It is always the best policy to speak the truth–unless, of course, you are an exceptionally good liar.
  – Jerome K. Jerome

Many a man who falls in love with a dimple make the mistake of marrying the whole girl.
  – Evan Esar

A wise man will make more opportunities than he finds.
  – Sir Francis Bacon

The important thing is not to stop questioning.
  – Albert Einstein

Any word you have to hunt for in a thesaurus is the wrong word. There are no exceptions to this rule.
  – Stephen King

You have to know how to accept rejection and reject acceptance.
  – Ray Bradbury

Education is a method whereby one acquires a higher grade of prejudices.
  – Laurence J. Peter

The nine most terrifying words in the English language are, ‘I’m from the government and I’m here to help.’
  – Ronald Reagan

The key to being a good manager is keeping the people who hate me away from those who are still undecided.
  – Casey Stengel

The important work of moving the world forward does not wait to be done by perfect men.
  – George Eliot

Nothing succeeds like the appearance of success.
  – Christopher Lasch

Always get married early in the morning. That way, if it doesn’t work out, you haven’t wasted a whole day.
  – Mickey Rooney

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责任

深山, 初秋, 傍晚.
“长官,这是在死者大脑发现的.”巡警递过一个包裹. 包裹満是灰尘的, 好像很久没被打开过了.
长官慢慢地打开, 发现里面躺着一个稚嫩的小身体, 接触了空气, 慢慢地伸展开小手小腿, 瞪着大眼睛腼腆地看着两位警官.
“是一个梦!”巡警接过后惊喜地叫了出来, 开始用手抚摸它的肚皮. 小东西咧嘴笑了起来, 兴奋地手舞足蹈.
长官从包里掏出一个发光的仪器, 对着小东西扫了一下, 光线透过了晶莹的身体.
“环海南…”巡警跟着仪器发出的光线慢慢地念道.
“放下吧.”长官一边收起仪器一边说.
巡警似乎没有听见, 一边看着鼓起双腮吸自己食指的梦, 一边笑呵呵地对长官说:”你看, 它一定饿了.”
长官转过身来. 这时巡警夺回了自己的食指, 正用双手作魔爪状捏爪小东西的小脸, 搞得小东西双手不停地在胸前拍打反击不算, 还多次试图抬起小腿抵抗. 战况十分激烈.  巡警似乎玩的很开心, 脸上映着红光, 发出的笑声和梦的笑声夹杂在一起.
“被遗弃的梦太多了…”长官似乎若有所思. 但看到夕阳, 沉吟的脸马上消失了:“今天还有几处?”
“8个. 下一个在北城区. 好像是那个吃安眠药的小女孩.”
“走吧!”长官推下了后车厢门.
巡警找了个块柔软的草地, 依依不舍地将小东西放在那里. 小东西瞪在大眼睛迷惑地看着巡警, 咧着的嘴好像还在期待巡警的新花样.
“轰”的一声, 发动了的汽车顺着路向山外开去.
飞驰着的警车压过一块石头, 巡警和长官在车内跳了一下. 后车厢飘出一张沾着血迹的小纸条. 纸条在空中荡漾了两下, 停在了路面上.
上面歪歪扭扭地写了一行字:”她走了, 带走了我的一切. 我的生命已经没有任何意义…”
草地上一直一声不响地看着车尘慢慢消失的小东西突然眉毛动了一下, 大哭了起来. 哭声填満了整个空寂的山谷.

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